"I WANT MY SIBLING BACK" FACEBOOK POST

I found this on Facebook... shared by "Somewhat Awesome"... no name, no details... just this.  I needed to remember it, to save it, to have it to read again... maybe to share... but who do I share it with.  No one wants to go this deep with me about sibling loss.  So I will share it here.  No one will respond.  No one ever does.  Some internet bugs will add to what is listed as views... but no one will will actually read this.  But I still need to save it somewhere.  Hoping... that someone also understands.  "Somewhat Awesome"... I understand.  

"Losing a sibling is weird. You never know how to properly grieve. 
You expect to lose everyone in your lifetime. Your grandparents, parents, animals. But never your siblings. You expect your siblings to be the ones helping you during the hard times. They were your childhood best friends, why wouldn’t they be growing old with you? 
Losing a sibling is such a weird concept when you sit down and think about it. They were your whole childhood. A huge piece of you. And until you lose your sibling, you don’t realize how few memories you have growing up without them there. Because they were always there. Whether you wanted them to be or not. 
Losing a sibling is hard because you have all of these photos of them from when y’all were kids and you have to choke down the realization that there won’t be anymore of you guys. You won’t be able to take photos with each other as you grow older. 
All the big moments in your life will just be that. Big moments in your life that you can’t share with your sibling. 
Losing a sibling is like losing a huge part of yourself. You feel like you’re losing your identity, all while trying to embrace pieces of yourself that reminds you of them. It’s a lingering pain that just doesn’t seem to get any better with time. 
The grief of losing a sibling does not get better with time. You just learn to live with it, however that may look for you. 
Each loss in life is different. Different and difficult. And while no loss is bigger than another, losing a sibling is definitely different than the other losses I’ve endured. I just always thought they’d be there. Losing them wasn’t something I could of ever prepared myself for. 
Sibling grief is often overlooked.. the forgotten grievers…

I miss my sibling. I’m not me anymore without them. It’s hard to carry on everyday missing them. 

Love your siblings today please, because you never know who spent the night crying missing theirs.

Look for signs sent to you from them. Look for the one funny cloud on a pretty sunny day. Look for butterflies and cardinals. Listen to the songs from the birds. Embrace the rain on your skin and the snow. Your sibling IS there with you. And they do send you signs, whether you’re able to recognize them or not. It’s okay to grieve however you choose, however long it takes. Do not listen to others who are confused that you’re grieving longer than they think is appropriate. Because really…. After losing a sibling, we’ll be grieving the rest of our lives."